Did i sleep ???

Today i woke up i went to bed before midnight and i woke up at around 9:30am so a little bit of a sleep in for me thats for sure. And i wake up feeling like i didnt even sleep a single minute, my eyes are burning, i feel like passing out where i stand.

Things have been so hecktic around here lately. The other day Noni woke up and we had to call the ambulance so she could get to the hospital she woke up and she couldnt move so now shes on bedrest and im taking care of her, making sure she eats and basically if she needs anything i get it for her. Me and Adam are both dreading August 3rd, i really hope that they dont decide to do surgery on our baby girl i mean shes only 3 months old, but i guess there gonna do what they gotta do in order to make her feel better.

Tomorrow we have to go to the school program that D will be attending on monday to meet the teachers and everything. I still have to go and buy some Epi Pens for all of this.

I can no longer give Ella her shoots cuz i cant bring myself to do it anymore, thank gawd adam is still doing it for me cuz i saw way to much blood one day and i freaked out. i mean who the hell wants to see there child bleed from your own hand, no one wants to inflict pain on there child period.

i start watching logan soon which will be interesting as well seeing as hes still attached to his momma...lol. and Jenn knows it too. lol . but she knows i love her !!!!

I still cant lift D i still have two weeks of recovery time left, its bothering me i mean i cant run , pick him up or anything really thats heavier then ella. so i got my abdominal muscles swon back together and now i cant use them...lol...kinda sounds funny if you ask me.

Anyways, this is basically just my tired rant for the day seeing as i dont even member what i just wrote that how tired i am and its only 12:53pm, how the hell am i gonna make it through this day... ugh

TTYL

Early morning hell

So lately ive been waking up at like 6am to start the routine for school which starts next week on the 18th. Its only been one day and i cant make it past like 5pm without wanting a nap. ugh! I have too much on my plate but i love it all at the sametime i just have to find a way to balance it all somehow. I mean ive got D getting ready for his program on the 18th and then starting school in sept. i gotta buy all his school stuff. and then miss Ella worrying about her and the possibily of surgery is just freaking me out, then starting babysitting on the 25th all right after me having surgery. and then im also tryin to plan a wedding in all that khaos. LOL but i love it and hate it...its a love hate relationship if you ask me. I just hate having to do it all myself, sometimes i wish i could have a little bit more help. Yeah i know i dont always ask for help but thats usually more cuz i feel that if i ask for help im failing in i guess my self esteem as a parent but in the back of my head im screaming and pulling my hair out. and wishing for just a half an hour to myself just to recharge somedays.

Anyways im heading to bed its too late already
Nite nite